On the most recent episode of “The Kardashians,” Kim stated of her ex, “It’s the hardest feeling to watch someone you really loved and you have a family with just be so different from who you knew.”

On the most recent episode of The Kardashians, Kim Kardashian was at her breaking point with her ex-husband Kanye West.

In the continuation of last week’s episode, Kim sobbed to her mother Kris Jenner about the effects of Kanye’s unpredictable behavior, which at the time included accusations and internet attacks on her family and loved ones.

Kim, 42, confessed to her mother, “I’m stuck with this for the rest of my life, and I’m just so overwhelmed,” admitting that while she can’t control her ex, it “affects my kids.”

Kris, 67, concurred, saying, “That’s the tragic part of the whole story.”

In a confessional, Kim said, “I still feel the need to not talk about it and protect it from my kids and I always will feel that way, but God, if people knew… I just would never do that to my kids.” Kim was visibly overcome with emotion. Simply said, it’s ridiculous.

“It’s the hardest feeling to watch someone you really loved and you have a family with just be so different from who you knew,” she later said of the artist.

Back in the talk with her mother, Kim acknowledged that Kanye, 45, might need to experience “rock bottom” before he fully understands the consequences of his behavior.

“At times, I think that if he were to reach rock bottom, that would be his trip to navigate on his own. I used to run about and say, “It’s gonna be OK, it’s gonna be OK, don’t worry,” to everyone behind his back. Just give him one more shot,’” she urged. I used to devote hours upon hours of my day to serving as the cleanup crew. I simply lack that energy.

“Well, that’s why you got divorced because you can’t do that to yourself,” Kris said to her daughter. You don’t deserve to live that way.

The couple also discussed how their four children, North, 9, Saint, 7, Chicago, 5, and Psalm, 4, were affected by Kanye’s activities. North must be aware of what is happening, but Kris maintained that she won’t say anything about it, which she said “breaks my heart.”

The assertion that Kim’s eldest daughter was aware of the drama was refuted by Kim.

“What’s weird is that she truly doesn’t know. When things are said, my entire family is connected. only Apple TV; no TV. I can’t let their dad be featured in an Access Hollywood episode or on the news with them wanting to watch, she said. They haven’t seen anything yet because I need to find a means to protect, but I then enter crisis mode.

“I’m the one being accused of so many things and being blamed for so many things, and it’s really hurtful and it sucks,” Kim continued in a confessional. My kids will witness how I react and whether I’m a mess, but I can manage those things. I genuinely hope that one day my children will value my stillness, my compassion, and my grace, and I will do everything in my power to maintain my composure at all times.

As fans are aware, Kanye and Kim married in 2014, but their marriage ended in divorce in 2021. During this turbulent time, the rapper sent erratic tweets, made unsettling accusations about her mother, and revealed incredibly private information about his family and marriage.

Some of Kanye’s disturbing comments also targeted Kim’s boyfriend, comedian Pete Davidson, whom she started dating in the fall of 2021. As the new couple’s connection developed, Kanye launched multiple online and media attacks against them.

In a 2022 court document, Kim claimed that his harassment had hurt her so much that it had caused her “emotional distress.” The SKIMS billionaire added that she “very much” wanted a divorce.

In records acquired by PEOPLE in February 2022, she stated, “I have asked Kanye to keep our divorce private, but he has not done so.” “Kanye has been posting a lot of inaccurate material on social media about our personal family concerns and co-parenting, which has caused emotional hardship. I think that the court’s decision to dissolve our marriage will make Kanye acknowledge the end of our marriage and help him find a better path going ahead, which will make it easier for us to co-parent our kids amicably.

On March 2 of that year, a judge declared Kim to be legally single.

Kim spoke extensively on the conflict with Kanye in last week’s show, stating that she needs to be the more mature individual for the benefit of their four children.

Even though he thinks so little of me because of my [sex] tape, he constantly brings it up in public and in the media. Like, thanks for bringing it up again,” she said to her mother. “I have to sit here and not say anything, ever, because I know my kids will appreciate that one day. All of his pranks is going to be far more harmful to the kids one day than my tape will ever be. And I am aware that is best for them.

“And by the way, I’m the one who gets in the car every day when something bad could happen and the kids want to turn up the dad music, and I’m like, ‘He’s the best!’” We start singing along as I put it on, and deep down, I’m dying because I will always be his biggest supporter in front of them, and one day, when they can see for themselves, I’ll respond to anything they ask me. It is a lot, she continued. And the one who was meant to be my guardian—who still declares in interviews that they will be my protector forever—is the one who is really hurting me.